What a crappy day. I am just entirely out of sorts and feel like I have been fighting with everyone I come in contact with, that I am too vehement, forceful, and just don't know when to shut the f*** up, back off, gracefully give in.
I am wound tighter than - hell, I don't even know what to compare it to.
And there is no reason to be so cranky and feeling like I will snap at any minute.
The more judgemental I get with myself, the worse I am with others, which of course goes in a vicious circle that I really don't know how to break - usually it breaks me first, I cry, I move on. But I'm really tired of feeling stuck in the terrible twos.
I should be a happy camper. There is absolutely NOTHING to be unhappy about. And a;; I can seem to do is grit my teeth, clench my fists, holler at my kid, snarl at people - unless I just ignore them . . . .
I hate feeling this way. I hate it.
Posted by Starla* (Member # 5835) on :
Try meditating--then do some yoga positions. You'll feel better. promise.
Posted by Shan (Member # 4550) on :
Ha Ha.
Does lifting a beer up to one's mouth count?
Posted by blacwolve (Member # 2972) on :
*hugs* you're one of my favorite hatrackers.
Posted by fallow (Member # 6268) on :
shan-enfant,
terrible news.
The tests came back, and it appears you are incurably adversarial. Take 2 sips and call me in the morning.
*scribbles arcane notes on pad and leaves*
doc fallow
Posted by Shan (Member # 4550) on :
*commences pounding fists and heels on floor with great abandon*
Much healthier than this common adult practice . . .
Edit to include: Sniff - really,blackwolv? thank you. /Sniff
*wipes tears from eyes and sighs deeply*
[ July 31, 2004, 01:39 AM: Message edited by: Shan ]
Posted by fallow (Member # 6268) on :
*slips into something more comfortable*
shan,
the good news is... well, how should I put this?
you're a MUSE!
shan fallow
Posted by Shan (Member # 4550) on :
Posted by fallow (Member # 6268) on :
This white horse is gonna take a cantor 'round the pasture and head for the stable.
*warning: whinneys inside*
fallow
Posted by Shan (Member # 4550) on :
Is this where I get to pretend Prince Charming on his white charger with shining armor has swept me off my feet?
*Waits with breathless anticipation*
Edit: horrible late-night typing
[ July 31, 2004, 02:09 AM: Message edited by: Shan ]
Posted by blacwolve (Member # 2972) on :
"I can capture my own damsel, Thank you!"
We had our second performance of Into the Woods tonight. Posted by Shan (Member # 4550) on :
I've never heard of that - do you have a link?
Posted by Shan (Member # 4550) on :
Looks like great fun! How'd it go?
Posted by blacwolve (Member # 2972) on :
Yep, that's it.
Pretty good, it's a kids show and the kids have improved so much since we started. Tonight wasn't our best performance but the audience was great, so it didn't matter.
It's a theatre camp and this has to be the best group of kids I've ever worked with. They're so mature! They keep on doing little things that you don't notice until they all pile up and then you're just like, "wow!"
Sorry, I get a bit carried away, this has been my life for two weeks now, it's hard not to go on and on.
Posted by Shan (Member # 4550) on :
*Sighs*
*Decides fallow really meant cantor as in cantor and begins humming medieval religious music somberly*
*Wonders which mode would work best to completely slaughter "Someday My Prince Will Come" - decides on aeolian as simplest . . . *
Posted by Shan (Member # 4550) on :
My colleague has two children involved in the community summer theatre productions here in Oly - it looks like great fun on the outside, and as I recall from school days long ago, it's lots of work!
Good for you!
Posted by fallow (Member # 6268) on :
quote:Is this where I get to pretend Prince Charming on his white charger with shining armor has swept me off my feet?
apparently not.
*yanks on a fresh pair of rubber gloves*
fallow
Posted by Shan (Member # 4550) on :
*Quivers in fright*
Posted by fallow (Member # 6268) on :
*washes Shan's dishes*
Argh!
*removes eyepatch to inspect unclean plate*
rrruh?
Posted by Shan (Member # 4550) on :
*Yawns mightily*
*Curls up on a pile of straw and drifts off to sleep in the firm conviction that the coming morrow will be low-key and pleasant . . .*
After all, tomorrow IS another day
*Lifts tear-stained face from garish red carpet in hope-filled anguish*
(The drama of it all! God! I love the drama!)
Posted by Shan (Member # 4550) on :
*Interrupts her dreams long enough to smile beatifically and hug fallow in thanks . . .
(((fallow)))
Posted by fallow (Member # 6268) on :
*rummages through kitchen drawers*
*plucks out magnifying glass*
*examines recalcitrant residue on plate*
*tosses implement aside, throws arms wide, and looks skyward*
KAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHNNNNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Posted by King of Men (Member # 6684) on :
Yesterday I snapped at the nurse who was giving me my hepatitis shot. Granted, she had managed to lose my paperwork, couldn't tell the time from my watch (she read 14:03 as 1:40) and insisted on telling me when "twenty minutes from now" was going to be up, as though I can't add four and twenty, but still. I much prefer the regular nurse.
Posted by fallow (Member # 6268) on :
![[Big Grin]](biggrin.gif)
promise.
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![[Wall Bash]](graemlins/wallbash.gif)
![[Angst]](graemlins/angst.gif)
![[Kiss]](graemlins/kiss.gif)
fallow
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I much prefer the regular nurse.