Thank you for sharing this with us. I am in tears at my keyboard, and can barely see to type this, but I have to say that your story is heartwrenching, and I know your beautiful baby is there with you and looking over you and your family.
Your title for this thread brought to mind an image of a small plot of land in a great big garden. At first, the small bit of earth doesn't seem like anything special from a distance, but upon getting closer you can see small flowers growing throughout it. They are bright and vibrant. And, above all else, you can tell that it is tended with care and love and brings joy to all who go there. That's how I see your "little corner".
My heart goes out to you and your family. Brian Benjamin most certainly did get a lot of love.
You know what's funny. I was thinking about you earlier in the evening. I was wondering how you and your family were doing. Then I come to Hatrack and find this landmark post. That's what makes this place so great.
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larisse...that is beautiful imagry. I know that will come to my mind this spring as I plant the many plants and seeds people have given us. (Never in my life have I been so determined to to kill plants!)
mothertree...many, mnay hugs. I guess we know better than most that sometimes there are no words.
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romany, I wish that there was something that I could say that would give you some comfort. You and your family and Baby Brian are in my thoughts and prayers.
I am truly inspired that your grief has not stopped you from being happy for others. When something like this happens, it's so easy (and understandable) to become bitter and withdraw from people who care about you, but you haven't done it. The huge amount of respect and admiration I have for you just makes me even sadder that you have to endure such a loss.
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Mrs. M...It's a choice, and not always easy. Will I honor or dishnor my son? I admit, the first time I came here after Benjamin ( we have started calling him by his middle name because it was getting confusing) died, and someone had had a baby, I sat and cried for 10 minutes before I could post congratulations. ( I admire you so much too, Mrs M.. you are just amazing)
romany, that was a tough thing for me to read, and I can't imagine how you wrote it. I'm glad you said it helped for you to share him with us.
Your son was so very beautiful. And Toni was right - he died knowing nothing but love. That is such a powerful statement.
I wish I could say something that might make you feel better - the emptiness you feel is unimaginable for me. I do want to say thank you for sharing his life, and his picture. I feel blessed that I had a chance to read it and see him.
I had to wait to read this until I thought I was strong enough.
Thank you for your trust. Sharing this grief with us was a huge compliment, and I thank you for it. I know how sharing can be healing, and I hope it continues to be a source of healing for you. I am happy to think that we can be a part of helping you heal.