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Today, I am seventeen. Needless to say, I do not feel any different.
My father was at University when he was my age, I have still two years to go. I have said before, and elicited much derision, that adolescence is an Existential period of ones life. Plutarch tells us that Caesar wept before a statue of Alexander, because he had not yet accomplished any great things. This is the nature of adolescence, although Caesar shows that it extends beyond the age of nineteen.
I shall make a list, à la Shawshank, perhaps to look back on it in a few years and be reminded of my seventeen year old self. I must warn that the following list is extremely saccharine and may cause problems for people with weak stomachs.
I. My Family and Friends I have a very close family, without whom I doubt I would have made it thus far. My friends have also been there for me when the absurdity of life has seemed to much. Although neither group can hear it, thank you.
II. Learning T.H. White said that the best thing for being sad is to learn something. How right he was. I have always loved learning, indiscriminately. This has been the sole cause, save for my family and friends, of any successes I may have had, but it has not always been rewarded. I occasionally have difficulty fitting my love of learning into a school course, and this has caused problems.
III. Poetry When all else fails, I find solace in poems, particularly in the soothing rhythms of Eliot or Auden.
IV. Hope for the future I have great hopes for the future, which naturally leads to great fears that they shall never come to pass and that I shall end as a failure, as an academic without a degree or job.
V. Myself For all my life, I have been my constant companion. I love myself and my life above all else, and yet I have also often felt towards myself a deep contempt hatred, which attacks me at the strangest moments.
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quote: I have a very close family, without whom I doubt I would have made it thus far. My friends have also been there for me when the absurdity of life has seemed to much. Although neither group can hear it, thank you.
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Happy Birthday Pel, may you soon find your self free from the shackles of teenage insecurity. Theres a calling out there thats right for you, go find it.
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Happy Birthday! Don't forget, there's plenty of non-academic learning out there too, which can be plenty fulfilling.
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quote: I have said before, and elicited much derision, that adolescence is an Existential period of ones life.
That seems like an accurate assessment adolescence. From whom did you elicit derision for it? (I suspect that in fact you did not. As I noted elsewhere, you have a tendency to see derision where it is not present, and, when it is present, misconstrue what precisely the derision is for.
quote:I have also often felt towards myself a deep contempt hatred, which attacks me at the strangest moments.
I'm sorry to hear it. I suspect it's true of a great many people here; it seems to be an affliction of the thoughtful, as they are often overprone to self-examination. I can certainly identify with the statement.
I hope you give things a chance to get better, and that you cultivate a receptiveness to their doing so.
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Just think, 800 years ago you would have been married with a kid (or two) by this point - or dead by plague, famine, or war.
Life is good! You get to come online and take part in an intellectual community without yet having to spend the time supporting yourself or a family - and better yet, there's far less chance now of you dying of plague, famine, or war!
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Tante, do you have some folder somewhere that just has a bunch of links and you just pull one out whenever the occaision arises?
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quote:Originally posted by Dr Strangelove: Tante, do you have some folder somewhere that just has a bunch of links and you just pull one out whenever the occaision arises?
Although you haven't asked...I think this is a good landmark, anemic or otherwise. I am a bit surprised to think so-I usually associate landmarks with being very lengthy and very detailed-but after considering it a moment...this is a good landmark. I am glad to have read it, and thanks for sharing.
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