AAAARRRRRGGGGGHHHH!!!!!!!!!

Thanks for letting me vent.

Rux
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-jon-
 

Thing is, sometimes the piece needs a break, you need a break, or maybe you need to figure out how to get past the self-awareness and back into flow. When my expectations are too high on something it makes getting into flow much more difficult-- I can't think a piece of writing matters, or it's dead. Enough time for liking it in rewrites. I can't go back, or it's dead. Time expectations also kill it. The only thing that works well for me is BIC, at least 1 hour every morning, and hoping that the flow shows up. Sometimes it does. Sometimes it doesn't. I think it's getting more frequent, but I don't think that very loudly. Can't scare the flow muse away.
 

I've forced myself to write before with three word sentances. I had a scene that looked something like this. "He gets coffee. She says, "What are you doing." He doesn't answer and leaves." Tense issues, no flow and yuckyness. But, it got me past the scene that I was having trouble with to one I wanted to write. Then later I came back and 'edited' the coffee scene, which really meant writing it, but fixing is always easier than creating for me. Its an easy way to trick myself.

I also write on the subway. I find that I think about the story till I get to the station, then I write till the train comes. The fact that I'm interuppted when the train comes, and when I get to my stop, gives me a sense of urgency and the same breaks that procrastination does.

Speaking of which, that's what I'm doing now.
 

I'm finding more writing blockiness with book number two. I think Shawn was right, the second book is harder, although I think it has to do with what we've been discussing in the 'to outline or not to outline thread.' Like Shawn, I'm not a detailed outliner, but for book two I have a better idea where I'm going, lots of points I plan to get to, unlike with number one for which I had only one scene I knew I wanted somewhere midway.

But I look at what I've managed so far and realize that if I just put fingers to keyboard, the words do come. So I'll keep at it, trusting that book two will eventually write so naturally that I'll miss my stop.

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Whats BIC?
 

On writing past the subway stop: I once managed to read past my stop on the school bus. Huge problem, calls to the school, bus radioed, special stop. Very traumatic, at least for the bus driver. (I didn't even notice until someone started yelling at me to get off.) The next day in school, someone said "Hey, they were calling you on the intercom. Are you so stupid you forgot to get on the bus?" I informed her that I forgot to get *off* the bus. Not the best rebuttal.
 

Like OSC, I don't believe in writer's block. I believe writer's block is your unconscious telling you something is wrong. That you might not be listening to the muse. The best thing to do is to stop thinking and just start writing.

Two things that have helped me:

(1) From Anne Lamott, I learned the one-inch rule. I only need to see one inch in front of me. I only need to know what the next paragraph will say. After I write that paragraph, then I only need to know what the next one will say. Soon I have four or five pages and I'm finished for the day.

(2) Never throw anything away. Again I learned from Anne Lamott that the best thing to do in this situation is to simply "free-write." Let loose on the page. Write five, six, or seven pages. Don't worry about what your writing. What you're doing is allowing you unconscious to explore your story. You're freeing your unconscious. It may take six or seven pages and then--WHAM!--there it is. It might be one line, or even a paragraph, but there it is. You know where the story is going. Everything else might be crap--and it ususally is--but you've found the pearl in the vat of mud. Sometimes it's worth getting dirty.

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Shawn
 

Thanks again

Rux
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Did I fall down the stairs?

I'm more blocked than Shaq in an all star game. (see I can't even describe my blockage well!) Usually when I'm blocked it means there was something I need to do. Problem is I think that thing is to write. I've put myself into an infinite loop. Perhaps it has something to do with the fall down the stairs
 

That's right...I started out with a rough skeleton, a starting opint, an ending opint, and three major plot points. I wrote 12 chapters and kept writing notes to myself "add this" "take that out" and "get the characterization on her better". Finally, I set it aside and outlined the 12 chapters I had just written....actually it turned into 13 by the time I was done with the outline. I slipped in clues and red herrings I had forgotten about (it's a mystery) and squeezed in an interview that had completely slipped my mind.

I didn't even outline in a forward direction, is the thing that strikes me. In the forward direction, I've still just got an ending point and a couple of plot points. But in this rough draft of my novel, I think I've found a new and useful method (for me, anyway). As long as I realize I have to rewrite the whole thing, I can keep going, using the stuff I've written and the working outline as my guide for future chapters. The stuff I've actually written will begin to make less and less sense as I push through, essentially building the outline through a rough draft. (I don't know why, but with nothing but empty pages I have a lot of trouble creating an outline....I need words to bring it to life.) By the time this novel is over I suspect that the beginning will look very little like the beginning does now (especially since I added a chapter 0) and that many subsequent chapters will be altered, but for my revision I will have everything I need...a highly detailed outline and a clear sense of direction. With that in mind, I can use the rough draft like another planning ool (and writing practice) and I believe my second draft will be very close to finished. (Needing editing rather thatn rewriting.)

I'm not sure if its having the outline, or stepping back and looking at it from a different direction for a while that helps though.

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By the time this novel is over I suspect that the beginning will look very little like the beginning does now (especially since I added a chapter 0)

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All books should have a chapter 0, in my opinion. But then I sometimes program in assembly language for the fun of it, so perhaps I'm just perverse.