Then I went to edit. Suddenly, my confidence is shot. What if I am crazy? What if there is nothing special to this story and I am just imagining that? What if after fixing the changes I already know I need to change, I send it to the WOTF crit group and the crits come back saying "what is wrong with you that you think this would ever be good enough to enter?" Or if I polish it all spiffy and send it out and don't get HM or anything. And then I submit to other markets and everyone hates it.
Or on the other hand, what if it is good, but it is the only good story I will ever write? What if whatever I did right in this story, I can never do again?
And so, instead of editing, I sat there freaking out. So, while the obvious solution is to just get two publications (the second shows the first isn't a fluke), any more immediate suggestions?
If you know where you want to submit, as it appears you do, save the original draft and "pretend" edit in a different file. That way you can go back to the baby untouched and the edits aren't "real." Of course, if they work then the edits are real and you are a writing genius.
I've had submissions all lined up to send and then paced for hours. In the end, all you can do is submit and then get back to writing.
Or as my crazy uncle said, "There's a lot of crap that goes pro; surely your crap is just as good."
Just kidding. Don't let fear get in your way. You need the wariors spirit. If you can write one good story you will write more.
Just do your best.
edit it the best way you know how.
Format it the best way you know how.
Don't forget your cover letter.
Put it in an envelope. Don't fold it.
Send it.
Here is the tricky part. Forget about it and start writing another entry...or story. If you are like me you will have written ten more stories before you even hear about it again. If you win, boy are the publications going to love those ten stories you wrote when you have your WOTF conquest on your cover letter to them. That is how dreams are made. Now your work starts to get published one in three submissions instead of one in three hundred. Or something like that. You meet an agent at a workshop that asks when you are going to write a novel. "Funny thing you ask...I am about half way through one now"
Warrior spirit.
Focus on the positive in life. More writing, less worrying.
I may be in the minority, but I don't really believe in the whole idea of "bad" writing or bad stories. If it comes from you, if you put feeling and effort into it and care about it, I believe it has merit.
The WOTF judges aren't the arbiters of what is or isn't a "good" story.
My only real advice is, have confidence in yourself, your muses and your stories. Keep at it. Don't get freaked out. If you've come this far, then you will continue. Your stories are there, waiting for you to tell them. Just do that, polish and shine them so that YOU love them, and let the rest take care of itself.
That may explain the emotions you are having. It will be fine.It is just the hormones talking. You are a writer. You write great stories. And win or lose, you at least have the courage to do what you love.
http://www.genreality.net/how-to-deal-with-feeling-like-a-fraud
I go through little cycles of self-doubt all the time. I remind myself I'm writing for myself and would keep doing so even if I never had any chance of being published. I keep writing. Eventually the little nagging voice of doubt gets drowned out by all the character voices insisting on being put to paper (well, computer screen).
Submit the work and take pleasure in the fact that you still like the work you're submitting - that one day you'd want to come back and revisit your characters,- and that your family (and friends) can read it, enjoy it, and find joy in the fact that it was produced by someone of their blood, and is now part of the family legacy. How fun is it to read a story by someone we know personally, even intimately, and see a new side of them? There's something special about that.
WOTF? That's just a li'l extra icing.
Don't let it get you down, sholar. Such feelings are normal. Tell yourself you should feel this way every so often, and that it's all a roller-coaster ride anyway.
My recommendation would be to go for a walk, or watch a funny movie (or both). In fact, I'd recommend getting COLD COMFORT FARM and watching it at least twice (it gets better every time).
Your body is expending a lot of creative energy to grow that baby, and you're bound to feel inadequate at times because of that.
Allow yourself to enjoy the ride, and think of selling and/or winning as icing, as billawaboy said.
Every story I write I think is either a masterpiece or a pile of crap. Sometimes I think both about the same story at various times in the process, but neither outlook is true. So I toss my hopes and fears aside, put the story in the mail and move on to the next one.
Then submit. What's the worst that could happen?
Looking at Nathan's blog, self doubt just means I am super skilled.
http://blog.nathanbransford.com/2010/03/do-you-lack-confidence-in-your-writing.html
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I feel like this all of the time. One minute I think, this story is so awesome, and the next minute I think, this is just drivel. I'd like to know how to manage the roller coaster ride of confidence and doubt.
But I think it is good to feel conflicted about our writing. If we don't have confidence in ourselves, we won't keep trying, but if we never doubt, we won't learn and grow as writers. So I think it is very healthy to feel this way.
I have to say, it sounds like you have written a story that really resonates with you. That is a good sign that you have written something very special. Good luck with your submission.
Best advice is to IGNORE self-doubt.
That initial feeling you had, when writing, that's the feeling to trust. It's the feeling that will get you up out of your chair and get you walking the manuscript to the post office. Or e-mailing it to an e-market. When you're writing you are in Creative Voice and that's where the inspiration and the power comes from.
When you are re-reading, you're in Editor Voice or, worse yet, Critic Voice, and your Editor/Critic Voice is liable to hate much of what Creative Voice does. Basically, your Editor/Critic is going to sabotage you at most junctures, and if you rely on Editor/Critic you're liable to trunk the story and never let it see the light of day.
My Editor/Critic thought very poorly of my story that won Writers of the Future.
My Editor/Critic was obviously wrong.
Don't over-edit until you get some feedback. But - trust yourself and no matter what feedback you get stay true to your story. It is your belief and passion that make the story come to life.
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Don't over-edit until you get some feedback. But - trust yourself and no matter what feedback you get stay true to your story. It is your belief and passion that make the story come to life.
Remember, the worst thing that can happen is you get a rejection.
Wait, scratch that.
The worst thing that can happen is you edit to someone else's vision then get a rejection.
Axe
In your case, instead of trying to figure out how to have the protagonist get away with less (a possible "fix" for the problem the editor had with the story), maybe you can go earlier in the story and set things up so that it isn't so unbelievable for the protagonist to get away with so much.
Or, you may be able to figure out how to structure the story so the protagonist doesn't need to get away with so much because of something someone else in the story does.
Or, you could have someone in the story express disbelief in how the protagonist gets away with so much, thereby acknowledging that it is a little unbelievable, but the protagonist doesn't understand it either and is grateful and very willing to take advantage of the "good luck" for as long as it lasts.
Or, you could have someone else in the story do something that makes it possible for the protagonist to get away with so much (maybe by secretly "paving the way" in some manner) and the protagonist never knows about it, but at least the reader does.
Or some other approach, more relevant to your story (since I haven't read it and am really just tossing possibilities out there).
Anyway, don't just try to fix the exact problem the editor mentioned. Try to figure out what else in the story caused the editor to have that problem and see if you can fix it indirectly.
ETA- I am actually feeling really good about this rejection. It wasn't a form rejection. It gave me a concrete problem. Also, they had a list of potential problems and none of those were checked (instead, they said other and typed in senior editor said X). Not having things like "fails to hold interest" or "poorly edited" marked makes me feel like I did an overall good job and have skills, just this person had this specific problem with this story. And I know I am probably over analyzing the rejection, but I am taking this as a really positive start of my career.
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If something one editor said gives an author clues that will strengthen a story, then by all means the author should strengthen the story, no matter what editor the story goes to next.