Hello, everyone. Today is my beloved Granny's first anniversary in heaven. She passed away from cancer last year. I still miss her terribly. We were very close. I'd like to write a story to honor her/help me deal with my feelings, but every time I try to write a story, I just end up journaling, basically. I just end up writing what I'm thinking and feeling rather than trying to form a plot. Oh, well. Perhaps that is what I need to be doing anyway. :) (Although I did have a lovely retrospective fantasy where I invented a magic ray gun that I used to zap Granny's cancer away and she got better and went on to live many more years...not really a plot so much as wishful thinking.) :) Maybe someday I'll be able to incorporate my experience into my writing. We'll see.
Posted by tesknota (Member # 10041) on :
I'm sorry that she's no longer with you.
My own grandmother pretty much raised me during my youth. Though I know it will happen eventually, I am not ready for her to pass away.
I'm sure that one day you'll be able to capture these emotions in your writing.
Posted by mayflower988 (Member # 9858) on :
Thanks. I don't think I was ready for Granny to pass away, either. I don't think we can ever be ready for our loved ones to leave us. Well, if it's possible to be ready, then I don't think we would feel ready. I know I still selfishly wish Granny was still with me. I had wanted her to see me get married, have kids, start a career. I know lots of authors have written fiction from their pain. Edgar Allen Poe, Louisa May Alcott, and Flannery O'Connor come to mind; I'm sure there are others. So I know it's possible. I just haven't figured out how to do it yet. Maybe I can start by writing in story form the crazy things Granny did. :)
Posted by Kathleen Dalton Woodbury (Member # 59) on :
Condolences from me, mayflower988.
It may be too soon and the pain still too fresh.
Keep journaling. Any writing is good exercise, if nothing else. You'll be glad you did.
Posted by mayflower988 (Member # 9858) on :
Thanks. I'll do that.
Posted by MattLeo (Member # 9331) on :
I understand. My mother passed away over a decade ago, but to this day when I pass her exit on the turnpike I feel the impulse turn off for a quick visit.