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"He watch out for you at the charity kitchen," said the boy. "You get in
at the kitchen." He kept looking her in the eye, but he was talking for the
others to hear. "He get you all in at the kitchen."
"Little kid get into the kitchen, the big kids, they beat him," said
Sergeant. He was eight, and mostly acted like he thought he was Poke's
second-in-command, though truth was she didn't have a second.
"You get you a bully, he make them go away."
"How he stop two bullies? Three bullies?" asked Sergeant.
"Like I said," the boy answered. "You push him down, he not so big. You
get your rocks. You be ready. Ben't you a soldier? Don't they call you
Sergeant?"
"Stop talking to him, Sarge," said Poke. "I don't know why any of us is
talking to some two-year-old."
"I'm four," said the boy.
"What your name?" asked Poke.
"Nobody ever said no name for me," he said.
"You mean you so stupid you can't remember your own name?"
"Nobody ever said no name," he said again. Still he looked her in the
eye, lying there on the ground, the crew around him.
"Ain't worth a bean," she said.
"Am so," he said.
"Yeah," said Sergeant. "One damn bean."
"So now you got a name," said Poke. "You go back and sit on that
garbage can, I think about what you said."
"I need something to eat," said Bean.
"If I get me a bully, if what you said works, then maybe I give you
something."
"I need something now," said Bean.
She knew it was true.
She reached into her pocket and took out six peanuts she had been
saving. He sat up and took just one from her hand, put it in his mouth and
slowly chewed.
"Take them all," she said impatiently.
He held out his little hand. It was weak. He couldn't make a fist. "Can't
hold them all," he said. "Don't hold so good."
Damn. She was wasting perfectly good peanuts on a kid who was going
to die anyway.
But she was going to try his idea. It was audacious, but it was the first
plan she'd ever heard that offered any hope of making things better, of
changing something about their miserable life without her having to put on girl
clothes and going into business. And since it was his idea, the crew had to see
that she treated him fair. That's how you stay crew boss, they always see you
be fair.
So she kept holding her hand out while he ate all six peanuts, one at a
time.
After he swallowed the last one, he looked her in the eye for another long
moment, and then said, "You better be ready to kill him."
"I want him alive."
"Be ready to kill him if he ain't the right one." With that, Bean toddled
back across the street to his garbage can and laborious climbed on top again to
watch.
"You ain't no four years old!" Sergeant shouted over to him.
"I'm four but I'm just little," he shouted back.
Poke hushed Sergeant up and they went looking for stones and bricks
and cinderblocks. If they were going to have a little war, they'd best be armed.
*
Bean didn't like his new name, but it was a name, and having a name
meant that somebody else knew who he was and needed something to call him,
and that was a good thing. So were the six peanuts. His mouth hardly knew
what to do with them. Chewing hurt.
So did watching as Poke screwed up the plan he gave her. Bean didn't
choose her because she was the smartest crew boss in Rotterdam. Quite the
opposite. Her crew barely survived because her judgment wasn't that good.
And she was too compassionate. Didn't have the brains to make sure she got
enough food herself to look well-fed, so while her own crew knew she was nice
and liked her, to strangers she didn't look prosperous. Didn't look good at her
job.
But if she really was good at her job, she would never have listened to
him. He never would have got close. Or if she did listen, and did like his idea,
she would have got rid of him. That's the way it worked on the street. Nice
kids died. Poke was almost too nice to stay alive. That's what Bean was
counting on. But that's what he now feared.
All this time he invested in watching people while his body ate itself up, it
would be wasted if she couldn't bring it off. Not that Bean hadn't wasted a lot
of time himself. At first when he watched the way kids did things on the street,
the way they were stealing from each other, at each other's throats, in each
other's pockets, selling every part of themselves that they could sell, he saw
how things could be better if somebody had any brains, but he didn't trust his
own insight. He was sure there must be something else that he just didn't get.
He struggled to learn more -- of everything. To learn to read so he'd know
what the signs said on trucks and stores and wagons and bins. To learn
enough Dutch and enough I.F. Common to understand everything that was
said around him. It didn't help that hunger constantly distracted him. He
probably could have found more to eat if he hadn't spent so much time
studying the people. But finally he realized: He already understood it. He had
understood it from the start. There was no secret that Bean just didn't get yet
because he was only little. The reason all these kids handled everything so
stupidly was because they were stupid.
They were stupid and he was smart. So why was he starving to death
while these kids were still alive? That was when he decided to act. That was
when he picked Poke as his crew boss. And now he sat on a garbage can
watching her blow it.
She chose the wrong bully, that's the first thing she did. She needed a
guy who made it on size alone, intimidating people. She needed somebody big
and dumb, brutal but controllable. Instead, she thinks she needs somebody
small. No, stupid! Stupid! Bean wanted to scream at her as she saw her
target coming, a bully who called himself Achilles after the comics hero. He
was little and mean and smart and quick, but he had a gimp leg. So she
thought she could take him down more easily. Stupid! The idea isn't just to
take him down -- you can take anybody down the first time because they won't
expect it. You need somebody who will stay down.
But he said nothing. Couldn't get her mad at him. See what happens.
See what Achilles is like when he's beat. She'll see -- it won't work and she'll
have to kill him and hide the body and try again with another bully before word
gets out that there's a crew of little kids taking down bullies.
So up comes Achilles, swaggering -- or maybe that was just the rolling
gait that his bent leg forced on him -- and Poke makes an exaggerated show of
cowering and trying to get away. Bad job, thought Bean. Achilles gets it
already. Something's wrong. You were supposed to act like you normally do!
Stupid! So Achilles looks around a lot more. Wary. She tells him she's got
something stashed -- that part's normal -- and she leads him into the trap in
the alley. But look, he's holding back. Being careful. It isn't going to work.
But it does work, because of the gimp leg. Achilles can see the trap
being sprung but he can't get away, a couple of little kids pile into the backs of
his legs while Poke and Sergeant push him from the front and down he goes.
Then there's a couple of bricks hitting his body and his bad leg and they're
thrown hard -- the little kids get it, they do their job, even if Poke is stupid --
and yeah, that's good, Achilles is scared, he thinks he's going to die.
Bean was off his perch by now. Down the alley, watching, closer. Hard
to see past the crowd. He pushes his way in, and the little kids -- who are all
bigger than he is -- recognize him, they know he earned a view of this, they let
him in. He stands right at Achilles' head. Poke stands above him, holding a
big cinderblock, and she's talking.
"You get us into the food line at the shelter."
"Sure, right, I will, I promise."
Don't believe him. Look at his eyes, checking for weakness.
"You get more food this way, too, Achilles. You get my crew. We get
enough to eat, we have more strength, we bring more to you. You need a crew.
The other bullies shove you out of the way -- we've seen them! -- but with us,
you don't got to take no shit. See how we do it? An army, that's what we are."
OK, now he was getting it. It was a good idea, and he wasn't stupid, so it
made sense to him.
"If this is so smart, Poke, how come you didn't do this before now?"
She had nothing to say to that. Instead, she glanced at Bean.
Just a momentary glance, but Achilles saw it. And Bean knew what he
was thinking. It was so obvious.
"Kill him," said Bean.
"Don't be stupid," said Poke. "He's in."
"That's right," said Achilles. "I'm in. It's a good idea."
"Kill him," said Bean. "If you don't kill him now, he's going to kill you."
"You let this little walking turd get away with talking shit like this?" said
Achilles.
"It's your life or his," said Bean. "Kill him and take the next guy."
"The next guy won't have my bad leg," said Achilles. "The next guy won't
think he needs you. I know I do. I'm in. I'm the one you want. It makes
sense."
Maybe Bean's warning made her more cautious. She didn't cave in quite
yet. "You won't decide later that you're embarrassed to have a bunch of little
kids in your crew?"
"It's your crew, not mine," said Achilles.
Liar, thought Bean. Don't you see that he's lying to you?
"What this is to me," said Achilles, "this is my family. These are my kid
brothers and sisters. I got to look after my family, don't I?"
Bean saw at once that Achilles had won. Powerful bully, and he had
called these kids his sisters, his brothers. Bean could see the hunger in their
eyes. Not the regular hunger, for food, but the real hunger, the deep hunger,
for family, for love, for belonging. They got a little of that by being in Poke's
crew. But Achilles was promising more. He had just beaten Poke's best offer.
Now it was too late to kill him.
Too late, but for a moment it looked as if Poke was so stupid she was
going to go ahead and kill him after all. She raised the cinderblock higher, to
crash it down.
"No," said Bean. "You can't. He's family now."
She lowered the cinderblock to her waist. Slowly she turned to look at
Bean. "You get the hell out of here," she said. "You no part of my crew. You
get nothing here."
"No," said Achilles. "You better go ahead and kill me, you plan to treat
him that way."
Oh, that sounded brave. But Bean knew Achilles wasn't brave. Just
smart. He had already won. It meant nothing that he was lying there on the
ground and Poke still had the cinderblock. It was his crew now. Poke was
finished. It would be a while before anybody but Bean and Achilles understood
that, but the test of authority was here and now, and Achilles was going to win
it.
"This little kid," said Achilles, "he may not be part of your crew, but he's
part of my family. You don't go telling my brother to get lost."
Poke hesitated. A moment. A moment longer.
Long enough.
Achilles sat up. He rubbed his bruises, he checked out his contusions.
He looked in joking admiration to the little kids who had bricked him. "Damn,
you bad!" They laughed -- nervously, at first. Would he hurt them because
they hurt him? "Don't worry," he said. "You showed me what you can do. We
have to do this to more than a couple of bullies, you'll see. I had to know you
could do it right. Good job. What's your name?"
One by one he learned their names. Learned them and remembered
them, or when he missed one he'd make a big deal about it, apologize, visibly
work at remembering. Fifteen minutes later, they loved him.
If he could do this, thought Bean, if he's this good at making people love
him, why didn't he do it before?
Because these fools always look up for power. People above you, they
never want to share power with you. Why you look to them? They give you
nothing. People below you, you give them hope, you give them respect, they
give you power, cause they don't think they have any, so they don't mind giving
it up.
Achilles got to his feet, a little shaky, his bad leg more sore than usual.
Everybody stood back, gave him some space. He could leave now, if he wanted.
Get away, never come back. Or go get some more bullies, come back and
punish the crew. But he stood there, then smiled, reached into his pocket,
took out the most incredible thing. A bunch of raisins. A whole handful of
them. They looked at his hand as if it bore the mark of a nail in the palm.
"Little brothers and sisters first," he said. "Littlest first." He looked at
Bean. "You."
"Not him!" said the next littlest. "We don't even know him."
"Bean was the one wanted us to kill you," said another.
"Bean," said Achilles. "Bean, you were just looking out for my family,
weren't you?"
"Yes," said Bean.
"You want a raisin?"
Bean nodded.
"You first. You the one brought us all together, OK?"
Either Achilles would kill him or he wouldn't. At this moment, all that
mattered was the raisin. Bean took it. Put it in his mouth. Did not even bite
down on it. Just let his saliva soak it, bringing out the flavor of it.
"You know," said Achilles, "no matter how long you hold it in your
mouth, it never turns back into a grape."
"What's a grape?"
Achilles laughed at him, still not chewing. Then he gave out raisins to
the other kids. Poke had never shared out so many raisins, because she had
never had so many to share. But the little kids wouldn't understand that.
They'd think, Poke gave us garbage, and Achilles gave us raisins. That's
because they were stupid.
Copyright © 1999 Orson Scott Card
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