I finished Ender's Shadow. It seems as everybody loves Ender so much because in game you made him out to be this innocent kid who couldn't help but to kill people and win and all that stuff. In shadow you made him seem all cold and unfeeling . . . was that because he really was cold or was it because that's the way Bean perceived him?
That's the way Bean perceived him — and Bean was wrong. But it's also the way the adults in Ender's Game often perceived him because that's the impression Ender gave. He kept his personal suffering inside himself.