I suppose all this crap going on has sapped me of energy and whatnot- right now I just feel depressed.
Sometimes I wish that for one second I didn't have to care, didn't have to feel, didn't have to feel like the weight of the world is on me. Which it is. The weight of my world is on me and me alone- there is no one who can abate that, because it is irrefutable- and all people ever try and do is use me for their own evil machinations.
Just tired of life at the moment I suppose. Not that I'mn suicidal- that choice was no longer a viable one a long, long time ago.
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You sound way too much like me. I just put your s/n on my buddy list, but I have class right now. If you don't mind, I'll message you sometime in the near future.
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I know that feeling... It seems as if I care about people and look out for them and mostly get the pain instead of the pleasure and fun.
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quote:Originally posted by Gecko: What's the difference between ignorance and apathy?
I don't know and I don't care.
Shawshank, is it possible that part of why you're feeling this way is the weather? An awful lot of people find that winter weather (which means they get much less sunlight, which triggers various biological processes) makes them depressed. Weather permitting, try to spend some time sitting in a patch of sunlight.
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See a shrink. Not to sound callous or anything, but this could be a biological thing. Or it could be a psychological thing. Either way, you want it fixed.
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See half the problem is the mental illness in my family (not me but others).
Also since I had to leave my church it is harder for me to see friends since I don't really have any at school.
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If you want someone to talk to, feel free to IM me. I'd definitely look into seeing a therapist or psychiatrist. It helps to feel like you kind of have a support team to work with you to help make life less blah.
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Rivka- I don't know. I have spent less time outside here lately- due to work, school, and a ridiculously crazy home life.
It might be- Lord knows I don't enjoy winter nearly as much as summer, and I do rather enjoy spending time outside.
I think maybe I just needed to have myself a pity party since sometimes I suppose I want pity- as stupid as that sounds.
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