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When i was living in Denver i intentionally cut myself off of most of my social world outside of denver. i became somewhat reclusive. I did however frequent an online community. it was a messageboard for the band BoySetsFire. I ran and modded this board with my friend's Garrett and Lauren. anyhow, so i was without AOL INSTANT MESSENGER as i logged on through a work computer with firewalls set up. The three of us (and my friend utah-sara who had access) would all just post in the admin only section and have conversations about anything and everything. it functioned as a makeshift messenger during those days. i emailed alot of those entire threads to myself and was just re-reading them and got kind of choked up at some of it...weird. It was from the most miserable period in my life, and yet i just found myself somewhat nostalgic for those days. i cannot explain why.
sad.
i don't know. but i just wished to share this for some reason. that was a messageboard, this is a messageboard...i dunno.
so...yea...
Ben
P.S on another somewhat related note, as i was typing this (i'm in the new Student Learning Center on campus at UGA) somebody from that period in my life just walked by me (she didn't see me). this is a kid who has completely shut me out of her life last year, anyways, that just added to the sadness i'm feeling and was another reminder of these times i'm longing for...
[ April 22, 2004, 09:32 PM: Message edited by: Ben ]
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Just remember, massive amounts of booze makes everything better.
Sorry you're feeling down. Maybe you should go talk to that girl and see what's going on and why she's shutting you out of her life?
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yea thats not going to happen. already came to terms that we arent in each others lives anymore. that wasnt really the purpose of this post. (although im not sure whta the purpose was)
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I have a friend I haven't talked to for almost a year I used to email and IM- that was our main form of communication- and just recently I was typing a subject line into my email and my computer gave me a box full of prompts for subject lines I had used in the past that started with the same letter. I felt the same way you're talking about, kind of nostalgic and choked up. So I think this means the computer is now a part of the human experience, it has functions that elicit emotion. Like smelling perfume on a letter.
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just now, somebody from that board and time IM'd me asking how i was and if i remembered them. havent heard from this person in years. talk about weird timing. this night can only get weirder.
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ok. so i ran into Bridget today. she stopped me on campus. i haven't talked to her 2 years. she's one of those relationships/friendships where we just fell apart. i mentioned her earlier in this thread. funny how coincidence works. my mind is currently a wreck. i don't know what to say.
egad.
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i just ran into that girl AGAIN. and it still made me sad the way i was coldshouldered by her as she just walked by me. i hate ****ing up people emotionally to the point where they don't even wish to talk to me. and if we do talk it's trivial. suckage.
note to the world, when you break up with somebody, put them in a box and ship them far far away so you dont have to mess with it in the future.
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That happened to me a few times (ex would never speak to me again) - I absolutely hate it. I've done it once or twice too - never wanted to hear from him or know he existed again. I think it comes with the territory.
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