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I have two reasons to be in a good mood today.
First is I feel like I've turned a corner with my whole marriage issue. I finally have decided to just let things happen and stop fighting so hard against things I have no control over. I told my wife last night that I need some love and affection and friendship. She is obviously not giving me any of that so I asked her if she just wanted me to start looking else where and forget about her. I told her I don't want to do that but its time I think about me and I need more than she is willing to give me. SO I asked her point blank to tell me what she wants from me so I can move on with my life and start living agai. Now this may be petty but, she started crying and said she just didn't know what she wanted. I see this as a good thing, a chink in the armor if you will. She even stayed in bed with me last night. The first time we've shared a bed in months. (of course there was a line down the middle I dared not cross but still it was a pretty good night.
Secondly, I've been forgiven by a good friend I treated really badly. Stephanie was the first person I met at good old Ohio Northern. And she quickly became the person I cared most about there and the relationship I held most important. During the last year I have really dumped on her. I rarely would speak to her(mainly due to my wife's feeling of distrust). I really crossed the line last year when she set me up with a job interview and due to a number of reasons that really weren't good excuses I never showed. Well, long story short after a bit of begging and appologizing she finally responded to my e-mails and forgave me.
So I've got a good smile on my face to day and hopefuly can carry it into the weekend.
And by the way I know this is a stupid fluff, look at me thread but I don't care today! Posts: 1294 | Registered: Oct 2003
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I think I must say one word of caution about your wife's response. You asked her for a direct answer and she did not give you one. She is still controlling you. Maybe I am being cynical. Aske her how much time she is going to need. You have been beating yourself up about this for months and all she can tell you is she doesn't know? You deserve better than this.
I'm so glad to hear it! (((((beatnix))))) Isn't it great when there's suddenly a day in which everything goes well?
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I also agree that I don't know may be the best she can do and it may also be her way of keeping control of the situation. But my comments to her were also honest. I don't want to look else where but I'm at the point that I need to look out for myself and if that is the only option she leaves me then I'll start living my life as need be.
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(((((beatnix))))) I'm glad things are looking up -- at the very least, it's clear your mood is. Posts: 32919 | Registered: Mar 2003
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