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Though I know not everyone pays attention to my comings and goings, I'm sure some of you I've spent a lot of time talking to have noticed my recent absence from both Hatrack proper and AIM. In fact, I have been offline, for the most part, for nearly three weeks, perhaps more. This is not the result of computer problems. Though I am not precisely leaving Hatrack--I plan to return in time--my absence is by design.
Unlike some of my fellow introverts, I find online conversations no less stressful than conversations in real life. They may, in fact, be more stressful, as I seem to spend a good deal more time playing social games, trying to avoid offense. For this I am quite ill-suited. I believe that this is a large part of the reason I have felt so irritable and exhausted lately (though other factors certainly also play a role). Spending hours scrolling through the pages of messages when I should still be in (or should already have gone to) bed doubtless also does not help.
The frustrating thing is that I do not actually want solitude. In fact, I realized this is happening in part because I have been spending so much time seeking a girlfriend. But even the best match is unlikely to succeed as long as my energy level remains so low.
Therefore I will not be back online on any regular basis for some time. I will answer e-mails--albeit sporadically--but I probably will not see responses even to this message. I regret taking this step, but I desperately need to recharge. I will return when I return--hopefully not too far in the future. If all goes well, perhaps I will have had the time and energy for more creative endeavors.
Best wishes to you all, Mabus (aka Lee)
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