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Noemon: No, people don't get mad here, it's my friends who get mad at me. I think they're tired of hearing about how I don't have a boy, and I want one.
And I have no idea why my colors etc. are not working... everything in my computer decided to break down and malfunction. My scanner doesn't work, my printer doesn't work, and my keyboard stopped too, so I took my dad's.
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quote:And there were LOTS and LOTS of people who would rather tease me than do just about anything else.
While I am one of those people who derive uncanny amounts of joy out of teasing Geoff, his post was pretty spot-on, Thor.
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quote:Well, if Xav's right, you can always date NON-Polish males. If you don't mind LDRs, I'm sure there are Hatrackers here who'd like the opportunity.
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Wowzers. Have I mentioned how much I love my Hatrack family? All you kids and even you adults are so kind, caring and filled with wisdom, you lift me up and you lighten my burdenous load.
One of the direct side effects of my loneliness has been to moan outloud about how lonely I am, and how much I would love a girl. This has allowed me to direct some of the more serious stress from a more serious problem...
--->"Crapcrud! I need a Job!"
...to my love, focus and romantization of love, girls, relationships, and the sweet, sweet kiss of a good woman.
This is good in a few ways.
One - It allows me to pour all of my heart into my songs, my poetry, and my writing.
Two - The screenplay I've been working on right now is about a guy who lost his true love and has been miserable without her. So my real life yearning feeds right into the screenplay and the Character is living in me and my mind. I feel his total loneliness and desire and need for true love and he feels mine.
The negative side effect -
People get tired of you moaning and whining about wanting, needing love, (unless you are very creative and comedic about it).
Hatrack allows me to spill my guts, and then usually you guys hand me my guts back all new and improved.
- Raia -
I pass to you what I give to myself, that if we have faith in Love, Love will have faith in us. If we reward Love, Love will reward us. If we give to Love, Love will give to us.
No matter how long it takes, patience, love and understanding are the things we must learn and live with.
- Geoffery -
That was one of the coolest, nice-est posts I've ever read at Hatrack. It's weird because I've always pictured us as an Ender/Bean type two-sides-of-the-coin parallel. You having a great strong family, strong straing and great breeding, me having to wade through the worst of the world, both attempting to get to the same place.
I think you hit a personal philosophy of mine, be as cool, kind and nice as possible, and then allow people to respond and gravitate towards you.
This doesn't always work and it hasn't worked much for me in the last 2 years.
I don't want anyone to think that I am exactly like the persona I aura out here at Hatrack. In real life, I am great at listening, great at maintaining respectful conversation, making sure that everyone is included and that all people and opinions are respected. I'm much more funny than serious.
...but...
here at Hatrack, something happens, something about writing brings out the THOR in me, the hammer swinging, let's discuss the issues that will save and change the world, here I am allowed to take out all my frustrations on the politicos of the world that I read, see and hear on TV or in the Newspaper or on the Radio.
Here I'm allowed to blow off all steam and let it all out. And that has me coming off like a BIG OLD JERK sometimes.
quote: There are places where you fit.
That is what I am trying to find. My place in the world, where do I belong, and what can I do to improve all around me.
I'll be a bit of extra batty until I find this, and finding my niche has been tough, I've always been weird, or different, but it used to be easier to be more entertainingly sociopathic, now that I'm a 31 year old manchild, I stand out like Muhammed Ali at a Klu Klux Klan rally.
I think the hardest thing for me has been growing up, because it forces you to grow up and play by the already set rules, where a big part of me really wants to be Peter Pan til I die and doesn't understand why everyone doesn't understand this.
I've had serious, serious family issues my whole life, and I've usually be given a GREAT, GREAT group of friends to make up for this. From the kids in elementary and Jr. High who were all a pack of geniuses that helped me build worlds through all of our Dungeons and Dragons, Action Figure wars or stryraphone kinght battles, to my Army of Footballing friends (4th grade through Freshman year in College) to my best friends from Highschool, College and my Casket Carriers now.
I had about as good as adventures as any highschool kid could have with my gang. The Gang
And my Early to middle 20's were an Amazing Epic Journey of Mythology with my Boys
As the King of America and the World's Greatest filmmaker, what am I going to do?
The first thing is to say thank you, to everyone and give an extra special thanks to Geoffery and Tom Davidson who wrote something that touched me greatly.
Tom Davidson, Slash the Berserker may win Hatrack's popularity contest, but I really thing you are the best Cool Big Brother here. You are a great writer, and I want you to know that some of your words from the post here have made it into the suicide song.
I love you guys.
<<<THOR>>>
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Geoff, that was a great post. I'm really glad you're a part of Hatrack.
That said, dog secretary? What? I'm sick today, so maybe that's why, but I have no idea what you're talking about. I'm really, really curious though.
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Thor, thanks for the advice. I understand that patience and everything is essential, it's just really hard to come by sometimes...
When everyone else has experienced the wonderment of being with another person, and hardly any of my friends are single anymore, one tends to feel a bit left out of things.
I hope it's the sort of not feeling well that leads to a little extra time reading in bed, a touch of melancholy broodiness (followed by a newfound hopeful optomism), and a lot of pampering from Mrs. Noemon.
I was puzzled by that post, too. I think it has something to do with the "can't see the colors" part of the conversation, maybe combined with misidentification of post authors? Posts: 14017 | Registered: May 2000
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Thor, it's awesome to watch you going through this personal metamorphism, and it's even better that you've found a family here to support you through it.
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Thanks CT! That's exactly the type of not feeling well--nothing serious. Unfortunately Mrs. Noemon is on a trip at the moment, and won't be back until Saturday evening, so I'm taking care of myself.
The color blind angle was the only thing I could come up with that seemed even vaguely plausible, but it still didn't quite add up. If there's author misidentification, like you suggested, that would probably explain it.
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Noemon I figured it out, look in your post a couple before Geoff's: dog secretary= meatspace... Geoff got too cute in his gramatical correction and went over all our heads.
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Hmmm...I still don't get it. Where's the grammatical error in meatspace? And if there is one, how does the dog secretary figure in?
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I guess it was a spelling not a grammatical error and think he thought you meant metaspace instead of meatspace, on if you meant a "meat market" like a shopping mall etc then he misunderstood you.
AJ
And with the meat bit.. it's like one of those dog food commercial where the dog assumes everything edible is meat and it effects his outlook on the world accordingly.
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Yes, the dog comment it was a color blind thing. I was saying that Noemon can't see colors because everything is being relayed by a color-blind interpreter. It was a dumb joke, and I didn't put a lot of thought into it before I typed and sent it Posts: 2048 | Registered: Jul 2000
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Shows what I get for trying to interpret the twists and turns of a game designer's mind.
So Noemon was the "meatspace" deliberate or not?
Plus Geoff it was Raia that has the color issue with her computer not Noemon unless they are the same person with different screen names. This was why I could only construe the comment to the "meatspace" bit.
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Oh, god! My eyes! Is that... My legs! They're turning to salt! And my the rest of my body's turning to stone!
Okay, dude, here comes the obligatory compliment that you've been demanding. You're not THAT bad. I mean, you are, but I don't think I'm allowed to say so. But I've seen worse. Maybe you're bad in the social scene because you've got an inflated sense of your own charm? Or because you speak like you type? Or maybe you are charming and handsome, and just give out depressed vibes? I mean, I can't speak for the others, but getting depressed doesn't exactly make me horny or passionate.
And in that second picture, on the far left, is that a really feminine guy or a chick with a mustache?
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As for you, Kama, I know you don't exist, but it's about time you took Tom's advice. DEFINITELY time to start dating outside of Europe. And when you do, start in Los Angeles.
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"The eye of the beholder is rarely in focus..." -Jon Young, a friend of mine
Self pity becomes no one, and is rarely really true. Beauty comes in thousands of diffrent forms, and the least important of all of them is physical. Let's not kid our selfs, it's influenciel, and a nice thing to have. But know that I would rather (if I have ever have a son) my son be a good man like you seem to be, then good looking and great with women. Listen to your fellow Hatrack members, it's obvious that in truth you are the farthest thing from ugly. You are beatiful on higher levels.
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No Banna, I'm definitely not Raia, unless we're both Cedonyms, of course.
I actually meant "meatspace", meaning corporial existence. I like your dogfood commercial interpretation though!
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I think I will use meatspace in at least one conversation today and see how it is taken...
Incidentally Thor, I don't think you are particularly ugly or extraordinarly handsome, just ordinary like most of the rest us are in the looks department. (Except for Ralphie and Jeniwren) There isn't anything wrong at all with looking ordinary. Being at either extreme of the spectrum has its own set of difficulties that ordinary people don't experience. We had a a thread on that a while back!
I know exactly how you feel. I had never had a date or a kiss or anything until I met my husband (no he wasn't my husband then ) and I was 17 when that happened. But after I married him, I realized how glad I was that I can honestly say that I've only shared those experiences with one guy, and he with me. I guess what I'm sayin' is, please, PLEASE don't let your desire to have a relationship make you too anxious to get in one...it maybe that having to wait for a special person will be the best thing that ever happened to you.
SBS-
You say you're very funny...is it possible that your jokes are directed at yourself? Sometimes a very funny guy will put himself down without really meaning to, but that is a HUGE turn-off. Maybe that's not your situation. Just a thought.
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Seriously though, no Raia, I used to have long brownish blonde hair, until I decided that I was looking a bit too much like Ben Franklin, and cut it short a few years back.
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