quote:Wishing I'd lied about my age and told everyone I was a child prodigy of 4 years old.
Sorry, Tante, Squoose already has you beat. He started posting coherent sentences at one day old. I think Superstation was posting that early as well. Nope, to impress us now, you're going to have to claim that you're still in the womb, which these days comes equipped with a computer and wireless access.
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quote:Nope, to impress us now, you're going to have to claim that you're still in the womb, which these days comes equipped with a computer and wireless access.
Good thing it's wireless. Posts: 6394 | Registered: Dec 1999
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Anyone else who parsed this as "it's rare I get to play with a straight man"? Because, uh, that was funny too.
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No. I don't lie like this in the real world. But I am not trying to excuse the fact I have done it here.
I get very nervous here sometimes, but I think it may be because I have no faces to attach to each of your responces, I have no basis on which to judge your reactions accuratly.
I spend a great deal of my conversations with any one in the real world judging how they feel on any given situation by their body posture, their eye movement, what they are doing with their hands, and the tone of their voice.
I'm not sure I can ever grasp the concept that so many of you seem to use naturally here on how you instantly judge a persons words as th truth. As far as I have seen (or at least observed) in my life, no one ever tells the whole or even partial truth through their words alone. And that makes me nervous when I'm on Hatrack. When I can't judge someone by anything more than their words it feels like I am being left deaf and blind to all but your words. And that is very uncomforterable to me.
I am sorry, I know I can never make it up to anyone here for what I have done, there will never be a true excuss for my actions. I promise that I will try to never lie to anyone here again, but that would mean nothing seeing as how my words are so hollow after my crimes. So all I can say is i am sorry. Posts: 1941 | Registered: Dec 2005
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Maybe you should go to one of the gatherings, if it makes you uncomfortable when all you know of us is the words you see on the screen. I know that the way I look at people here has been colored by my interactions with them in the real world.
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That is what I mean. I have always judged people by their actions, not their words. And yet each and everyone of you does it so easily.
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quote:I get very nervous here sometimes, but I think it may be because I have no faces to attach to each of your responces, I have no basis on which to judge your reactions accuratly.
Because all we have are words without tone of voice, body language, etc., it is actually more important that we behave well here.
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This thread got really interesting really fast and I missed all of it! Ah well, Advent making an ass of himself and getting called on it is quite amusing to read.
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Why? When I come here, it is to escape the real world. I have no dillusions that my being here or talking to someone will ever lead to the things i find important in the real world. I will never find love or everlasting, true bonding friendships here. This place will always seem forign to me.
Yet... I still suffer, I still hate myself everytime I return. Because I know that, that nomatter what I do I shall never be forgivin. I hate myself more every time I cannot stay away from this place because even if nothing truely important to my real life will ever come of this place, I still betrayed. And that is something I take to heart. I will never be one of you, not even if some of you ever forgave me for my crimes. I will always be the outsider looking in saying a few words.... and then walking away with an even heavier heart because I know that I have caused yet another place where I cannot be allowed to exist. That I have caused even more rifts that echo my bloodline, that no matter what I do I am a betrayer, a coward, and a bastard.
I will never be one of you, and I know it.
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Why do you want to be one of us? Being one of you is good enough. The trouble arises when you try to be one of something you are not.
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quote: I will never find love or everlasting, true bonding friendships here. This place will always seem forign to me.
You have no idea how many people *have* found these things here.
As I said before, Hatrack isn't like the rest of the internet.
quote:Because I know that, that nomatter what I do I shall never be forgivin.
You can be forgiven. While what you did will always be remembered, as time passes and you are more known for the good things you have said and done here, it will become nothing more than an inside joke. "Hey, remember back when you did that thing that one time? Yeah, that was pretty wild." Do not underestimate the power of forgiveness, especially here.
quote: I will never be one of you,
Being "one of us" really isn't all that hard. Just stick around and try your best. You'd be surprised just how easy it is.
quote:I will never be one of you, and I know it.
Don't sell yourself short. BTW, thanks for coming back and trying to make things right. That means a lot to us.
Edit: Don't mind Primal Curve too much. He doesn't pull his punches for anyone.
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Now you mock me with attempts to lul me back into the hope that I can be amongst you? Why do my own emotions work against me?
I have no hope of return, and yet there are those who would offer their hands to me? Why is it that this seems like nothing more than pity for the weak? And I feel like the weakest of this offer.
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When I bother to speak like this, that is when I am revealing my most private self. That is how I attempt to communicate what is in my heart of hearts. So please, do not mock me for my choice of words.
And community? From how I see it, a community can turn into a place where you become nothing but pawns for others. And not even by people wh may care for you. As Valentine said "You can only hope that those who use you are people who care about you". And I don't see much of that in the world.
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People don't care as much about your choice of words as the fact that you won't stop saying them.
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Incidentally, I think Amanecer may have gotten the wrong idea about my age. There was a thread where I made a joke a while back about being a white, 18 year old Mormon (there was a troll saying that most people on the board were this and someone put up a poll and well, it struck me as funny in the situation - I did acknowledge that it was a joke later on in the thread). I've never actually given my real age, but I can say that two of those statements are false, one by around 10 years.
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No, I'm just expecting for genetic research to have gone far enough in 10 years that I'll be able to switch races, thus fulfilling my life long dream of becoming Mr. Charlie.
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quote:When I bother to speak like this, that is when I am revealing my most private self.
Liar. No one's private self speaks like Vardolax, Dread Lord of the Ur-Spleen. When you speak like that, you're putting on your whiny face.
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He just turned 17. Darn, I didn't think to make a birthday thread for him. If you're reading this, sorry, Mr. Funny. I hope the phone call was good enough.
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Advent, the drama really isn't helping. In light of recent events, it comes off as more attention seeking. Apologize, sincerely, and move on.
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This just seems like the perfect place to adopt "All the world's a stage" to "All the forum's a stage". It even has lines about whining schoolboys. It's like Shakespeare saw this moment coming...
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"I am sorry, I am sorry for my desceptionsand my lies that made you believe I was someone I am not. I am sorry that I abused the trust of Hatrack. I am sorry."Posts: 1941 | Registered: Dec 2005
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Hatrack is very forgiving - at least it has been for the few years I've lurked. Even if PC isn't. Posts: 1069 | Registered: Feb 2005
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Look at the name. Primal. You probably need blood sacrifices, long incantations, and chocolate bunnies.
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Prometheus (never did recieve the log in info on this one thoguh)
And because I just remembered, I never have choosen my major in college. But am thinking of changing it to humanities (liberal arts).
Oh, and I am still taking the bartending class. (wish it would go faster though. And I won't be able to get a licence for it for another year *sigh* I need that money)
EDIT: Humanities or Social/Behavioural Science Posts: 1941 | Registered: Dec 2005
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