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Mrs. M, I got a false negative and it was a week before I finally got the positive. So it IS possible. But, as you said - not this cycle doesn't mean not ever. It's a disappointment but it's not the end of the road.
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Ryan was a false negative, so don't give up hope. But like Belle said, this was only the first try. Our doctor even warned us not to get our hopes up too much because the first try was always used to help determine the proper dosages for the next round.
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Thanks for letting us share. There is still hope - even if it wasn't a false negative, there will be another time.
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Thanks everyone. It wasn't a false negative - I started my period today. I'm actually relieved. At least there won't be three more days of wondering and we can get on with the next cycle.
I will probably start the Clomid again on Thursday.
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Good luck Mrs. M,I am praying for you. I wouldn't mention my name to God if I were you though, he might want the back rent. Once he knows you know me he will keep on calling and calling.......
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I think that the worst part of infertility is the emotional rollercoaster you go through every cycle as your hope is renewed only to be dashed one more time.
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I am so sorry. It will happen for you. Sometimes these things just take a while. I cannot imagine what you must be going through. If there is anything I can do do not hesitate to ask. ((((((Mrs. M)))))) edit: forgot an r
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Mrs. M, you will be in my thoughts today. Sending you all the strength and good thoughts I can. Posts: 2919 | Registered: Aug 2004
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My current cycle is a bust, too. My doctor wants to check my ovaries for cysts (which may have developed in response to the treatment) before doing another round of clomid. Of course, he's out of town. I'm pretty frustrated.
We're going to start our home study - I need something positive to focus on. If we get pregnant, wonderful. Home studies are good for up to 2 years and we'll just wait. If I don't get pregnant, then we don't have to wait to have a child.
On a completely different, and more positive, note, I've been asked to become an NRA recruiter. I'll be working mostly at gun shows. I'm also going to be taking classes to become a licensed firearms instructor. Andrew was saying yesterday that I'll be the weirdest teacher ever - my subjects will be K-1 Hebrew alphabet and pistol shooting.
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So, tomorrow I have a baseline ultrasound to see what's going on with my ovaries. Then we'll start all over again.
Here's the latest installment of my surgery account:
A few minutes after the anesthesiologist left, they wheeled me into the O.R. A whole team of nurses came to get me, which I thought was neat. One of them was very pregnant. We got the to O.R., which was smaller than I thought it would be. The table was much narrower, too, and it had extended arms. I climbed oh-so-gracefully onto it. It was freezing, but the nurses put a new heated blanket over me and they even put an extra one over my outstretched arms. I wasn’t nervous at all, but I did start to get the giggles. The anesthesiologist (I really wish I could remember his name), put the juice into my I.V. and told me that the room might spin and things might get a little psychedelic. I told him not to worry, that it would remind me of college. Everyone laughed and then I was waking up in the recovery room.
The nurses there were as excellent as I had come to expect from this hospital. They were shocked that I had woken up so soon – 20 minutes ahead of schedule. For some reason, I was very talkative and I explained that I was having this procedure so that I could have a baby. I also told them that I wanted a boy, because we planned to adopt a girl. I just could not shut up. I felt groggy, but not nauseous. I wasn’t in too much pain, either. After however many minutes, they wheeled me back down to my room. Andrew was there and he was really glad to see me. He asked my how I was and I gave him a thumbs-up. Normally, I would have mocked him for such a ridiculous question, but I was still too groggy. They told me that they would discharge me as soon as I drank something. I asked for ginger ale and turned over on my side. That freaked Andrew out for some reason. He also told me that I didn’t have a laparoscopy, which explained why I was recovering so easily. Normally, I would have asked why I didn’t have one, but I fell asleep before I could even think to ask.
When I woke up, I was really nauseous. I told Andrew and he rang for a nurse. She put something magical in my I.V. and the nausea went away. I was very, very happy and about 99% coherent. Dr. Slackman came in to check on me and explained that the polyp was in such a visible position that he hadn’t needed to look at it from another angle. He told us that everything went great. We thanked him and he went on his way. The nurses’ aide came in with ginger ale and I drank half of it. Andrew later told me that he had never heard me sound so Southern. He said that I sounded like I came from a place where they don’t fly the Stars and Bars because it’s not Southern enough. I had a thick accent when I was younger, but years of stage training helped me to be able to speak with a non-regional accent. I lived in NYC for 5.5 years and I was always careful to hide my accent. Even now, I tone it down, but it comes out when I’m nervous or upset or tired.
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We'll be thinking about you for that ultrasound!
Thanks for sharing this really, I know it can't be easy, but it really does highlight the emotional ups and downs and the struggles of infertile couples. Something that needs to be brought to light.
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I had a pelvic ultrasound today. No cysts on my ovaries and my uterine lining hasn't thickened. So I am starting the clomid today and having another pelvic ultrasound November 30th. If all goes well, I'll be inseminated again on December 1st of 2nd. I am so happy that I don't have to wait another month to try again. Dr. Slackman is optimistic and that makes me optimistic.
Of course, I'll be awash in a sea of raging hormones just in time for Thanksgiving with my in-laws, but c'est le vie.
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Great news, Mrs. M! I hope everything goes well for you.
I giggled at your post about the surgery, and how talkative you were afterwards. Because it reminded me of when my oldest son was just 9, and had an appendectomy. This kid is so shy and quiet I'm usually lucky to get five words from him all day long. But when he had that surgery (and again a few years later when they pulled his wisdom teeth) both times when he came out from under anesthesia, he was just a talking machine -- couldn't get him to shut up for a breath. Sometimes silly, but very coherent stuff. Makes me laugh again just thinking about it.
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Here we go again. I had a pelvic ultrasound today and there are 2 eggs in my left ovary. Again. This time, though, they're huge. One in 23cm in diameter and the other is 27cm. Dr. Slackman was pleased. I got the super-painful shot and I'm being inseminated tomorrow at 1:30pm. I hope it works this time, b/c I'm getting really tired of this - I don't know how much longer I can keep doing it. Y'all's support has really helped me to cope. It would have been twice as hard without it.
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are you sure you didn't mean millimeters? (or something even smaller)
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Sorry I'm wishing you the best, but the engineer in me is coming out with the units. 23cm is 9.1 inches, which is almost as big as an entire baby. even 23mm = 2.3 centimeters is almost an inch... 23 nanometers might be too small though.
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Not sure at all. I never learned the metric system in school. They looked pretty big on the monitor, though.
In fact, yesterday my French prof. was telling us about how far diesel cars can go on one tank and we all just stared at him blankly b/c none of us know how many kilometers in a mile.
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Best of luck, Mrs. M. I don't know how you're feeling, but I do remember my friend who struggled with infertility talked of feeling the same way - like she just couldn't do it anymore. She hung in there, and I just attended her baby shower a few weeks ago. I hope that's somewhat encouraging news for you.
I'll be thinking of you and sending positive vibes your way.
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*crosses fingers very hard* Ouch ! *well a little less hard - but will be thinking about U two with all her heart*
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Thanks, y'all. This thread is keeping me from getting too down or crazy.
I got basted today. Now comes the wait. Luckily, I have a ton of things to do, so I'll be busy. Still, it's a long 2 weeks.
I am also trying hard to avoid the omen trap. Like, thinking, "This time, the follicles are bigger. This time, the shot hurt longer, but in a smaller area. Maybe it's a good sign that my new carry permit arrived today. Etc. Etc."
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Thank you, Kwea, for causing me to decorate my screen with hot tea.
I may never forgive you.
*continues laughing as she ponders "form of a . . . " and imagines things better left unsaid*
(((Mrs. M))), keeps fingers crossed, and giggles more at the "don't worry, it'll just remind me of college" comment . . .
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