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I can't believe it's come to this. Yesterday, Andrew and I watched Elf and I cried at the end. Andrew couldn't believe it. Stupid hormones are making me crazy and all of these holiday commercials are making me cry. I am not a crier normally.
I don't feel pregnant and the thought of going through this again is really unpleasant. The though of going through it two or three more times is really, really unpleasant. I'm so tired.
The holiday season is both helping me and getting me down. On one hand, I have finals and faculty parties and JSA and Hebrew school parties and presents to buy and wrap. My holiday card list is topping 50 this year. So I'm keeping busy. On the other hand, where's my Hanukkah miracle? We had a Bat Mitzvah at my shul on Saturday and it was great, but I asked for grape juice instead of wine and a dozen people asked me if I was pregnant. Then I asked for decaf and another dozen people asked me if I was pregnant. I just told them no - I didn't feel like explaining. Plus, a ton of people called me Jessica (the only other girl at shul my age, who looks a lot like me), which annoyed me way more than it should have.
But enough of the pity party. I just bought some pretty new clothes, which did cheer me up some. If only they had decent shoe stores in Roanoke.
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I just bought some Kiss My Face stuff online, which will make me feel better when it arrives. Specifically, my chapped hands.
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Hormones suck. I remember one time my husband and I were watching a comedian and I was laughing so hard. And I don't laugh or cry. I laughed and laughed, and my husband laughed and then started looking at me, then I burst into tears and cried for 10 minutes. Not the pleasant tears streaming down the face, but the full on can't breathe sobbing, snot running down your nose awful crying.
I don't remember who the comedian was, but he was talking about drive-thru windows at McDonald's or Burger King and having worked at both places, what he said was so true and funny that I just laughed. But that laugh/cry thing is a lot like the love/hate thing. Very close. Apparently, I was a little tense and needed some tension relief. My husband still makes fun of me for that.
(On a positive note, I was pregnant at the time, so, fingers crossed that it's the same for you.)
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Thanks for the link Mrs. M, KissMyFace sounds wonderful, and their products are not expensive.
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Kayla, I think I remember that comedy thing. Was it the guy who worked at the BK drive-thru and everyone screamed at him? He was hilarious. I'm glad I'm not the only hormonal crier.
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Oh, goodness, Mrs. M, I'm not prone to crying generally, but with hormones, anything can happen. I remember driving to work one day when I was pregnant with my son. It was a 10 minute drive, and I started off the drive happier than anyone else in the entire world. Nothing could possibly go wrong and I was sure I could sing birds out of trees, I was so happy. About nothing in particular. By the time I got to work I was sobbing. Sobbing. The world sucked and it was all gray, and no colors could dare exist. Nothing except a couple of minutes seperated the two extremes.
It was a bizarre experience.
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Hm. Imogen! I picked one of these boots and they were 585 dollars. 585! Is that what you pay in the US for a pair of boots or is this just an expensive shop?
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It's expensive. Only crazy people with lots of money shop there. But it's worth it, because -- and I'm surprised they don't mention this anywhere on the site -- each boot comes with two people to follow you around and compliment you on your sense of style for as long as you own the footwear.
The Honey and Calendula moistouriser is the only thing that clears up Livvie's mysterious rashes...seriously, it is better than prescription stuff.
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quote:Kiss me mother, kiss your darlin Lay my head upon your breast Throw your loving arms around me I am weary let me rest
Thanks dread pirate romany and imogen.
Tomorrow begins round 3. I have my pelvic ultrasound and, if there are mature eggs, painful hormone shot. I'll be inseminated the next day.
I'm weary. I'm not optimistic or pessimistic about the outcome, I'm just sick of this. The crying is exhausting me.
This is the last time we are doing this - we move up to daily injections if it doesn't work.
Andrew wants to go with me to the insemination this time, which is fine with me. He thinks that it's good luck to have it done on such an auspicious day - New Year's Eve. We'll see.
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Thanks, y'all. Sorry about the pity party. Andrew's been gone all week, which didn't help. He's coming home tonight, though.
I'm actually feeling a bit better - I just exfoliated with a new sugar scrub and it was great.
Plus, the Steelers are having such an amazing season that I can't get too down. Except I'm worried sick about Ben Roethlisberger and Jerome Bettis - I don't care about Sunday's game, but I want them 100% for the playoffs.
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All my life. Born into a Steelers family. My parents lived there for a while before I was born and I spent some time there with friends of the family when I was younger. It's a great town.
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quote:I'm actually feeling a bit better - I just exfoliated with a new sugar scrub and it was great.
Plus, the Steelers are having such an amazing season that I can't get too down. Except I'm worried sick about Ben Roethlisberger and Jerome Bettis - I don't care about Sunday's game, but I want them 100% for the playoffs.
*glares at God*
Come on, man... this woman DESERVES a child!
*stops glaring, what with the smiting and all*
Good luck, Mrs. M... the Bogs will be rooting for you!
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The follicles are at 12mm and they need to be at 16. I'm having another pelvic ultrasound on Sunday and if everything is okay, insemination on Monday. Maybe 2005 will be luckier than 2004.
Thank you, y'all, for your support - it's a huge part of how I'm getting through this.
I'm keeping you and Andrew in my prayers too, and I'll be thinking of you this weekend especially.
I love that you mentioned exfoliating with a sugar scrub and wanting the Steelers to be 100% for the playoffs in almost the same breath. It made me happy.
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Mrs. M, Even though the Pats are destined to win again, and you chose a loser-filled team, I sincerely hope you are right about 2005. Best of luck!
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(((Mrs. M))) Winter is an especially stressful time, I think that's why we have the holidays when we do. I conveniently can't remember what the silliest thing was that I ever cried over. But when a boyfriend told me that his mom cried during the Ewok battle the first time they saw ROTJ, I thought I could definitely relate.
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So I had another pelvic ultrasound today. I feel like I could do it myself, I've had so many. I was staring at the instruments while I was waiting for Dr. Slackman, contemplating the logistics.
I had one two days ago and the largest follicle was 12x12. It needs to be at least 16mm in diameter. The growth rate is 2mm per day, so we should have been ready to go today. Unfortunately, all of the follicles were still at 12mm. Dr. Slackman didn't even need to tell me, I saw on the screen that nothing was going on.
It's impossible to tell why I didn't respond to the clomid this cycle. We know from previous cycles that I do respond to it. Dr. Slackman told me not to stress - it happens. However, he agrees that it's time to take it to the next level. So, next cycle we will be doing injections. Into my stomach. Every day.
I'm disappointed, but not crushed. I'm glad that we're stepping it up. I'm going to a mini class on how to do the injections. You can be assured that I will be paying very close attention.
Steelers 10, Bills 3 in the first.
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